Coffee & Paul

He and I have a ton of things in common and the love for coffee is one of them. I have stopped drinking coffee since I started taking Burn 60 (I take in 2 capsules a day, one capsule is equivalent to a cup of coffee), but of course there are days when you have to skip the Burn 60 routine and have some coffee with the one you love.
I remember it well, we had our first personal chitchat at Starbucks last November 17. Just the other day, we reminisced that moment and we laughed at ourselves for being pretty nervous then. But I remembered being comfortable with him before our day ended. He even apologized for the silent moments where the cricket sound usually pops out, but he didn't know that I loved every bit of it, even the silent moments.
I had to blog about this one because when I woke up today and heard his sleepy voice on the other line, I realized that this guy I'm blessed with is a keeper. And I want to be with him for the rest of my life.
Where can you find someone who would surprise you at work when you thought he fell asleep on you? Someone who would take you out with his friends then surprise you with your Christmas gift infront of everybody? Someone who would bring a big bag with a cheesy pastry for you in it when the original plan was just to pick you up from work? Someone who would take you to the movies at 3am, lend you his fragrant jacket and sleep in the theater with you cause the movie is just too boring? Someone who wouldn't sleep until he hears your voice? And someone who envisions a clear future for the both of you, a happy life together 5 to 10 years from now... I finally found that someone and his name is Paul.

Real Deal

I really love the way you say hello
I love the feeling when I see your name on my computer window
Boy, you make me feel special in every way
Words can't express, but I'll just say what I have to say

I guess you never saw how I look at you
When you're reading and looking closely at the menu
I just love the puzzled look of your face
So don't freak out when suddenly, you get an embrace

I dread every minute you are away
Did I tell you I want to be by your side every night and day
Cause I'll miss those chinky eyes when you smile
You might be a man, but you have a heart so fragile

I would never get tired of you asking me
On what I ate, what I did and what I'd love to see
And how you remind me to always take care
Since you came, I've loved this life better even if it's unfair

I am excited for what is in store for us
I know we won't destroy each other's trust
Oh, by the way, did I mention the way I feel
Boy, I love you so much, this is the real deal.

My Man

It was Tuesday night and I still remember well
I can recount the things we said and happily, I dwell
Because on that fateful night, things had turned
To something amazing in which today I yearn.

We started as friends, we were both broken
I talked about him and suddenly, I became open
You talked about her and how she gives you pain
You know you don’t deserve it, they were all insane

Little by little the feelings grew
Into something that fully erased the blue
I had doubts, I had questions that I need to ponder
Then you surprised me with “The Book of Answers”

Now, every morning when I wake up
I smile at the thought that I don’t want this to stop
Then I look at my phone and see your name
I smile again ‘cause I know, everything has changed

You are the best, this I tell you
In the simplest words, I want you to know what is true
That on that day, that won’t ever repeat again
I will forever cherish that you became my man.

Forever

Let us not go back to the past
Please prove to me that this will last
The memories of us being ‘just friends’ before
Have occurred and it made me remember once more

It’s not that it wasn’t happy, don’t get me wrong
What we had in the past is actually what made us strong
Maybe I just don’t want to reminisce the negativity
I’m telling you this for you to see my stand clearly

I’m very happy now, I don’t want this to fade
But if ever, I know we will do everything to save this love we made
I’ve repeated countless times how thankful I am for you
You’re the answered prayer and I can’t wait to say ‘I do’

What I said might be too early to say
But I can’t control it if I truly feel this way
Time will tell and it will make us stronger than ever
I can foresee how this will go and Love, I can actually see forever.

ThankPAUL

This is my favorite picture of Paul so far, it shows his wacky (hungry) side. I haven't met anyone like him really, he's completely the boy version of me and I feel like the luckiest girl alive since that amazing man up there is mine. Yes, mine.

Life Lately

And let the happy days...begin.

Just a reminder that happiness is a choice everyone, so always choose to be happy. I will be very busy for the next few weeks so I might not be able to update my blog. I might be back on my birthday next year and I'm actually pretty excited to turn 22. So please have a merry Christmas and a happy new year you guys! Spend it with your loved ones and don't let other people spoil the moment. Catch ya'll soon! :)

Collaborations

I'm soooooo excited! Found some guys who are interested to have a collaboration with me. The first would involve a somewhat comic book featuring one of my stories and the other one is the transformation of my poems (shitty and sweet) to songs!!! Yes, fuckin' songs! These people are so talented and I am so stoked to work with them. I'll keep my blog updated regarding the collaboration. So... what have you guys been up to lately?

Catching Up

Sweetest Friends

I have the sweetest friends one could ever have! They met up at Starbucks last week to catch up but three of us weren't around so instead of putting their names on the cups, they put in ours. Sweet! I'm soooo excited to see them tomorrow as we party to celebrate my bestfriend's birthday! Loving December! :)

Gifts

One thing I love about Christmas is that you're actually allowed to give gifts for no particular reason other than it's Christmas. I really love giving people gifts, of course I love receiving some as well but giving something to special people is rewarding. I love the excitement it brings especially when they're about to open their presents. This year I want to be play Santa and I'm so excited to shop for stuff and I'm more excited to wrap them! It's a tradition and I have a thing for wrapping gifts.

I've received a few gifts for Christmas and even if it's too early, I always make sure they know it's very much appreciated. So I can't wait to give my gifts, the list is getting longer...gaaah! :))

Coming Soon

Game Time

It's 3:30am in the morning and I'm still pretty hyper. Good thing my brother's still awake to keep me company. Brother's the only boy so being the eldest, I feel the responsibility to not just be a sister to him but also act as a brother. Lmao. We both click in many things like watching Family Guy for 24 hours, The Walking Dead, dogs, and every zombie-themed movie there is. So for now bradaaah... it's playtime.

Maxime

I've always adored babies. For me, they're the cutest thing on earth that even the most evil person just can't resist their cuteness. And as I have a weakness for babies, this blog post is dedicated to the most beautiful baby in the world for me, my cousin Maxime. I haven't seen her in person yet 'cause she's in the U.S. but I have a feeling we will be seeing each other real soon. Everytime my aunt posts new pictures of Max, I'd hurriedly run to show it to my mom as we're fond of looking at her pictures and seeing how fast she's growing even through it. The little kid is surely gonna be spoil by her aunt Mara when she gets there. Love you Max!

Blue Jeans

Blue jeans, White shirt
Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn
It was like James Dean, for sure
You so fresh to death & sick as ca-cancer
You were sorta punk rock, I grew up on hip hop
But you fit me better than my favorite sweater, and I know
That love is mean, and love hurts
But I still remember that day we met in December, oh baby!

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more
Than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

Big dreams, gangster
Said you had to leave to start your life over
I was like: "no please, stay here,"
We don't need no money we can make it all work
But he headed out on Sunday, said he'd come home Monday
I stayed up waitin', anticipatin' and pacin' but he was
Chasing paper
"Caught up in the game" that was the last I heard

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more
Than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

You went out every night
And baby that's alright
I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side
Cause Ima ride or die
Whether you fail or fly
Well shit, at least you tried.
But when you walked out that door, a piece of me died
I told you I wanted more-but that not what I had in mind
I just want it like before
We were dancin' all night
Then they took you away- stole you out of my life
You just need to remember...

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more
Than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

The Lover's Dictionary

I've been hurt, yes I have. But being beaten emotionally isn't enough reason for me to not believe in love. In fact, I could firmly say that I've never believed in love this much before.
Love could be in many forms you know. Had I opened my mind to that reality ages ago, I wouldn't have get hurt. But it was all good, everything bitter in the past has eventually changed into a lesson learned for me now. And I tell you... I'm so ready to begin love again.

Trying to write about love is ultimately like trying to have a dictionary represent life. No matter how many words there are, there will never be enough.

What I'm Thankful For

1. Life

2. Family

3. Friends

4. Good Food

5. Good Music

6. Good Movies

And a whole lot more!!! Happy Thanksgiving you guys! :)

Hollywood

I have always been a fan of costume parties so when the committee of our project decided to have a Hollywood themed masquerade ball, I became giddy! Not only I'd get to dress up but also it will be so much fun. I wanted a classy, sophisticated, and elegant look so after a long time of thinking it over on who I'll be that night, it's now narrowed down to three.

Marilyn Monroe - who doesn't want to be her? But then again, being Marilyn is too common. Still on my list though.

Taylor Swift - need i say more?

Audrey Hepburn - my fashion inspiration of all time. Sooo classy! 

Those are my top 3 choices as of the moment, but if ever I can't find dresses that would make me look as fashionable as them, I do have a backup plan. I'll be Ellen! 

Burn 60

Since I became very very conscious when it comes to my health, I decided to seek the expert's advice when it comes to being fit. And when I said expert, I was actually referring to my dad. He's one strict fitness buff and I'm too amazed of his devotion when it comes to stuff like those. Anyway, he recommended I use GNC's Burn 60. It's a weight loss pill that helps speed up your metabolism and makes you lose 2x more than you're loosing on a normal workout. I don't usually try stuff like these but since I badly need to shed some weight before Christmas season (for our Hollywood masquerade themed Christmas party), I guess this one's worth a try. I started today and honestly, I felt great right after. I'll be ditching the sad posts for good and will concentrate on fitness and happy posts. So let's all see the progress in me. Lmao. Have a great day! :)

Life Outside the City

Last November 1, my family and I flew to the countryside to visit our relatives there. It has been a little over 2 years since I last set foot on that part of the Philippines. Though our visit was short and we almost didn't sleep due to our tight schedule there, it was ALL worth it. I missed everyone, I missed riding on the back of my uncle's pick up truck, I missed eating with my cousins, I missed walking around town and getting entertained 'cause it seemed like I was just playing Sims (everyone knows everybody!). Bottomline is that I miss the life there and when I get to have a vacay again, I'll make sure I get back.

Begin Again

Took a deep breath in the mirror
He didn't like it when I wore high heels
But I do
Turn the lock and put my headphones on
He always said he didn't get this song
But I do, I do

Walked in expecting you'd be late
But you got here early and you stand and wave
I walk to you
You pull my chair out and help me in
And you don't know how nice that is
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

You said you never met one girl who
Had as many James Taylor records as you
But I do
We tell stories and you don't know why
I'm coming off a little shy
But I do

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

And we walked down the block, to my car
And I almost brought him up
But you start to talk about the movies
That your family watches every single Christmas
And I want to talk about that
And for the first time
What's past is past

And you throw your head back laughing
Like a little kid
I think it's strange that you think I'm funny cause
He never did
I've been spending the last 8 months
Thinking all love ever does
Is break and burn and end
But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again

But on a Wednesday in a cafe
I watched it begin again.

This song is very appropriate at the moment! :))

Little Details

I could remember perfectly on how it used to be

When we were happy, just you and me

There are things you don't  know, but today I'll spill

Those little details I love about you, I'll reveal

The caps you wear, they suit you perfectly

Your nerdy glasses, it makes you see clearly

I love how you wear dark clothes everyday

It's strange how I find you cute in every way

I still remember how you wear ripped up jeans

You wear them at practice and it shows your knees

I could still recall how awesome you are in playing the guitar

Even with your eyes closed you still play like a rockstar

I'd never forget how you love watching tennis on TV at night

You think I would get bored, but I'm with you so it's alright

How you love eating pizza and burrito for dinner

I tried forgetting these things but why does it seem to get clearer

I remember how you try so hard to learn the piano

And how you never gave up until I learned to let go

I'm sad cause everything seems ironic now

Makes me ask if the show's over and if I need to bow

But if I have to, I know there's one thing I won't forget

That not so long ago, there's this man I can't resist

Because of the little details in him, I loved them all

For those are the reasons that made me fall.

Always

Weddings. My second favorite event next to Christmas. Yes! It makes me so happy seeing two people in love tying the knot. My close friends know how much I love organizing wedding stuff and seeing cute wedding pictures. I love designing the whole event just to make the day perfect for the bride and groom.
Yesterday, 28th of October 2012, my friend Raymond was married to the woman of his dreams, Allen. It was such a beautiful wedding! It was also done on a Sunday which is unusual to most Catholics. But since the priest is his uncle, then that's one of the perks.
If I remember it right, they were together for more than 7 years. If that isn't proof that they've known each other so much then what is? Being together for that long is a gift that's not given to everyone who is in a relationship. There are obviously lots of happy moments and for sure there are also pains. But they survived all the struggle that came in with that 7 years and now, they are one.
I wish you both nothing but the best in life and remember what the priest said: "The secret to a happy marriage is a marriage without secrets."