I planned on talking about this topic months ago.. but I couldn't bring myself to write it. Not until recently, Chester Bennington, Avicii, Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain died because of it.
I want to talk about depression and anxiety.
Google's Description
Depression is a mood disorder characterized by low mood, a feeling of sadness, and a general loss of interest in things.
Anxiety comes in many forms—panic attacks, anxiety attacks, phobia, and social anxiety—and the distinction between a disorder and "normal"
I want to start by sharing that I have anxiety. I think we all do. But I have had anxiety attacks which are pretty bad. I can't remember how it started but it surely has to do with me being a worrier.
With the recent events in my life where I had experienced rejection, my anxiety grew stronger - yes, even when things already went back into its proper places and those rejection were replaced with comeback efforts, it still won't go away. My recent episode was just last week wherein all bad things that had happened to me in the past came running through my fuckin' mind.
My mind, with anxiety of course, did not make it any better and made up a whole fuckin' scenario of a much more fucked up story. All this happened with no basis at all. It's just my head messing up with me. For my experience, this is my anxiety. And it is never easy.
On a positive light, I am a very talkative person and I have very talkative friends. I am lucky to be surrounded by a supportive family and an understanding boyfriend who is willing to help me get through this. Thus, it makes the load feel lighter. Actually, with me opening up with how I feel, it makes the load go away. Because remember, there's actually nothing wrong in the first place.
All of these are happening just because of past experiences which your brain cannot delete and yet it multiplies it to create worse stories which are totally upsetting. And if not taken seriously, it will all bottle up and lead to depression. So to say, me sharing all my thoughts and being open to the people I love does help a lot.
Another thing that has helped me is my self therapy. I watch motivational YouTube videos that uplifts me and makes me think of things in a positive perspective. I have also made it a habit to read a quote per day and I send it to the people whom I think would need it, aside from the bible verses I read which are also very helpful. Reading and hearing other people talk about it makes it waaaay easier. Because you know that you are not alone in what you are experiencing.
I also find entertainment in watching sitcoms such as Friends, How I Met Your Mother and watching series like 13 Reasons Why (really helpful as it tackles this sensitive topic), Game of Thrones, Riverdale, Sherlock, The Crown, Stranger Things, Narcos..etc. It shifts my mind whenever dark thoughts come into mind.
My anxiety attacks, if I were to assess, are still pretty normal. So I really am going to help myself get over this and hopefully, not get back ever.
But on top of that, I just really want to help. In US alone, suicide rates has increased by 25% since 1999. And this is something that could have been prevented. If only.. if only.
I am no expert. I am not a doctor or an experienced person in this field. But I have my share of demons and I think it can be fought. With this, if you know someone who is suffering, talk to them. Be there for them and help them.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
DIAL: 1-800-273-8255
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
I want to talk about depression and anxiety.
Google's Description
Depression is a mood disorder characterized by low mood, a feeling of sadness, and a general loss of interest in things.
Anxiety comes in many forms—panic attacks, anxiety attacks, phobia, and social anxiety—and the distinction between a disorder and "normal"
I want to start by sharing that I have anxiety. I think we all do. But I have had anxiety attacks which are pretty bad. I can't remember how it started but it surely has to do with me being a worrier.
With the recent events in my life where I had experienced rejection, my anxiety grew stronger - yes, even when things already went back into its proper places and those rejection were replaced with comeback efforts, it still won't go away. My recent episode was just last week wherein all bad things that had happened to me in the past came running through my fuckin' mind.
My mind, with anxiety of course, did not make it any better and made up a whole fuckin' scenario of a much more fucked up story. All this happened with no basis at all. It's just my head messing up with me. For my experience, this is my anxiety. And it is never easy.
On a positive light, I am a very talkative person and I have very talkative friends. I am lucky to be surrounded by a supportive family and an understanding boyfriend who is willing to help me get through this. Thus, it makes the load feel lighter. Actually, with me opening up with how I feel, it makes the load go away. Because remember, there's actually nothing wrong in the first place.
All of these are happening just because of past experiences which your brain cannot delete and yet it multiplies it to create worse stories which are totally upsetting. And if not taken seriously, it will all bottle up and lead to depression. So to say, me sharing all my thoughts and being open to the people I love does help a lot.
Another thing that has helped me is my self therapy. I watch motivational YouTube videos that uplifts me and makes me think of things in a positive perspective. I have also made it a habit to read a quote per day and I send it to the people whom I think would need it, aside from the bible verses I read which are also very helpful. Reading and hearing other people talk about it makes it waaaay easier. Because you know that you are not alone in what you are experiencing.
I also find entertainment in watching sitcoms such as Friends, How I Met Your Mother and watching series like 13 Reasons Why (really helpful as it tackles this sensitive topic), Game of Thrones, Riverdale, Sherlock, The Crown, Stranger Things, Narcos..etc. It shifts my mind whenever dark thoughts come into mind.
My anxiety attacks, if I were to assess, are still pretty normal. So I really am going to help myself get over this and hopefully, not get back ever.
But on top of that, I just really want to help. In US alone, suicide rates has increased by 25% since 1999. And this is something that could have been prevented. If only.. if only.
I am no expert. I am not a doctor or an experienced person in this field. But I have my share of demons and I think it can be fought. With this, if you know someone who is suffering, talk to them. Be there for them and help them.
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
DIAL: 1-800-273-8255
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
