Affirmation

It took me 2 weeks.. 2 weeks of grief, numbness, disbelief which eventually turned to hope, acceptance and strength. What you are about to read is me officially closing this book, and writing a new one with lots of excitement and happiness.


At my lowest point, there are 2 things I have realized:
1) You need to love yourself first and everything else falls into line
2) Choose people who choose you


I initially thought, hey it's easier said than done.. but when I actually tried it, it's not that hard. Or maybe because I was just super lucky and loved that the support I had was outrageous!


For the first time in my life, my parents actually gave me love advice! :) It was so funny and direct and I realized how less time I spend with them that I actually don't get to appreciate them on a frequent basis. Plus, they kind of sponsored my upcoming trip which is actually pretty cool.
Mama, Papa.. you guys are the best. I adore you both so much and I love you.


My brother and sisters were also very supportive. My brother, who is soon to be my fitness coach has been very supportive and always reminding me that I could convert the loneliness to fitness.
My sisters and I had a heart to heart talk which led them sharing their own experiences on love. Something that we never did before! Oh loveys, I am so proud and happy to call you my siblings.

 

My co-workers (Chan, Gerson, Jeff, Eric, Arlene, Carmel, Joe and Kier).. thank you for our daily 2-bottles-during-Holy Week trip to Heaven's, our weekly Samgyupsal and for just being there for each other. The bond is surreal. Thank you for letting me see what's good and bad, for keeping me company and for being game all the time. You guys rock! Special mention also to Thet and Irish who have been very supportive especially during the 1st week, the quotes here and there have been so helpful.

My core friends (Gege, Macky, Anthony, Jaja and Winston).. From seeing each other only every 6 months, to our weekly weekend coffee dates, I appreciate the love guys! I appreciate the laughter which made me realize how lucky am I to be a part of your lives. And happy 10 years of friendship to us! Now that's a ship that's hard to sink! :)

To a very special friend, Rudy.. yes, he's our Rudy from back then. Thank you for never leaving.
You've been an inspiration before and you continue to be an inspiration now. You've been a solid source of strength and for that, I cannot thank you enough. And thank you for keeping your promise to always be there..


There are still so many people to thank, so many! But I've already thanked them for it since every person I got to talk to throughout this whole experience is definitely a big help.


I am so happy to say  that I've come out of this experience as a new person. A person who's lovingly chosen to put herself first this time around, to always see her self worth and to never settle just because it's what society is telling you to. If you're currently in a situation where you feel unhappy but you think you just can't let go because you've invested so much, then it's not right. Let it go, and let God handle the rest.
True happiness can only be found if you won't settle for less. Always go for the best ;)


In a few days, I will be flying to Taiwan to start some new adventures. Meet new people and just live life freely and happily as I can. I am so excited to share my adventures with you. I am more inspired to write now, more than ever. I am soo back!


As I have emerged from such situation, I now know how it feels and if ever you need someone to talk to, please feel free to message me. Email me at maramanz11@gmail.com or send me a comment (even anonymously) below. I just want to help as much people as possible. Let's live a happy and positive life that's open for all possibilities. <3

Xoxo,

Ellie